The Skiing Hindu

I gave in again on Friday night (big surprise there). Part of the problem is I've become so friendless that I'm left with absolutely nothing to do on my days off. Actually, I DID have something to do. My mom was in town and wanted me to see her at my family's place where she was staying. I told her I was too tired to go. I suck.

After X left, I opened the package I had bought from him and kept snorting and watching porn all night...but wait! That wasn't enough, because a couple hours into it, I hired that call girl I was so impressed with last time! It was pretty much the same thing this time. I got semi-hard, then totally lame for the rest of the time. She seemed tired too (it was pretty late). Basically, I just blew $260 for nothing. The one semi-saving grace is that I came 4 times. Once with X and 3 times watching porn. What an awesome life I live <---sarcasm.

I FINALLY got this damn book I ordered from Amazon called "The Power of the Dharma". I've been interested in a long time in Sanatana Dharma (Hinduism) & so far it seems to be right up my alley. Based on everything I've learned studying different philosophies, I think this may actually be one that I stick with.

I skipped the last NA meeting. No excuse, just did.