Needless to say, I hooked up with him on Friday again. It was not a long session. He claimed he had to leave early due to work the next morning, so we didn't do that much blow. I was actually well enough on Sunday to go to the gym and do a full workout (weights and cardio).
Nonetheless, I'm depressed as fuck again. What the fuck am I going to tell my shrink? Last time we had a session, he talked about how maybe he was not the right therapist for me due to the lack of progress. He's right. What the hell am i supposed to talk about on Wednesday? How I failed to resist again? I'm considering cancelling or just giving up therapy all together.
In the meantime, the girl I was dating became pretty upset about me not pursuing her any further. I feel bad about it. I'm back to being lonely as hell on top of miserable. Great.
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Maybe I should try the gym...it Xmas, all I have is one text saying he has 'had a lot on' so I am lonely too. It will get to the stage of me just going out alone and doing what I feel rather than being alone as loneliness sucks. Still being a twat hoping he will call, and have a guy I don't want getting stalky too....I will need to get this off my chest but I am not sure there is anything therapy can do.....when it comes to this kind of thing there is no talking 'sense' into me when I am thinking with my heart....and my nose. I know it sounds pathetic but it's true. Thought I was the only one...All the best hon. Hope you get through this stronger x
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