I think I'm cool with this

Ok, so I went to party again last night with my friends in Pompano. WOW, that was a great time!!! The only thing that sucks is when we're outta shit, I tend to get depressed, lol. This time, I actually went out there mainly because I wanted to get the hell out of the house. My mom's b-friend has become a real dick towards me and I think if I would have not left, we may have gotten into a fight. I swear, I was ready to go off on him like a mad dog. It started earlier when I recieved a complimentary "package" from a friend. It was enough to have a little fun for an hour or so. So, I popped in some good porn and did a couple lines (saving a few big ones for the "grand finale"). Just as I'm getting really into it, Fuckbrain walks in (I was in my room with the door closed) and starts making all kinds of noise. I tried to pretend I was sleeping, so what does he do? He turns on the vaccuum and starts bumping it against the walls and my door, which I'm sure was totally on purpose. So, I went into the bathroom and tried to finish off with a decent orgasm at least, but it was too late. I did the last of it, but I was already really pissed and the high was ruined.

Anyway, I think I'm okay with this once-a-week thing. I actually just got done working out even though I was all fucked up last night. One of my main concerns with doing coke has been that it tends to put me out of commission for the day after I do it. Not this time!

I'm also very aware that I tend to do it a lot more when I have nothing else to do (duh!), which has me kind of worried because I'm still out of work (except for a side job that I do for a few hours a week). But, I've decided that I will be going back to school. Unfortunately, classes don't start until the end of January. Still, it means moving to where I've always wanted to go - Boulder, CO. That will be fucking sweet!

Also, the countdown has begun for my "Fuck-Fest Weekend"! She is flying down here in about a week. That's going to be SO much fun. As for ML, I've not talked to her much. I think we're both assuming that it's not working out as we thought it would, and it's just fading naturally (thank God!). I already told her that I would be leaving for school.