...and out of nowhere, The Force POUNDS The Dark Side!!!
HELL YEA! It's been a very rough battle these past few days, but the tables have turned as of this evening. I've been doing my psychological exercises to stay positive and harness the power of The Force. While writing in my journal, I came to the realization that I have been given a gift that, if used correctly, can overpower my demons every time. That gift is CREATIVITY! I've realized that I've been focusing WAY too much on my perceived shortcomings and getting away from reality through drugs. I can TRANSCEND reality and CREATE it! I'm fully aware that the battle will rage on, and this is not the end, but it's nice to see a victory on the good side. I'm determined to make that a growing trend. It's so strange. From that moment on, the rest of my day has fallen into place and been quite pleasant!
I love cocaine and sex. There is only one feeling as powerful as that combination, and that is true love and sex (which I've lost several times by now). Ironically, I've lost the latter due to the former. Oh well, fuck it.